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For some of us at the Vampire Rave, we felt a true 'calling' to perhaps come here.



Yes, in some cases we were directed to a 'cool vampire site' and wanted to be one of the chosen 'few' to be in the know. However there -are- a few that link themselves and perhaps a few others to the true sight and sound of this website, and others like it.



Case in point-- for those also into Wicca/WitchCraft, Vampires or just the knowledge therein-- there seems to be a calling as of late. Does anyone else feel it?



It's the half heard whisper that causes you to turn around when you're trying to concentrate on something else. It's the 'magnetic pull' out into the night, on the end of the street when you know no one will be there.



The feeling disappates when you get there, bloodlust gone if there is any, and you feel some sort of peace. You energy is up, and you could do a lot more things... but for some reason you do not know what exactly you -should- be doing.



Perhaps you pace the floor or give the dog an extra walk around the block to not let the others know who and what you are a chance to figure you out. You look somewhat normal, but others have said you've a presense, perhaps the nearest 'calling' is actually you. The pull being that which helps you make friends so easily, or talk the professor into an extra day to refine your work.



As of late, this is what I've been experiencing. The last few months have been a twist in the right direction for me, needing to find others as if something is about to happen, or some realization that the meeting with others will resolve when we come in contact with each other.



Again, something as of late seems to be calling to me-- but I am not the only one. A few others, ones in my biological family also feel this strong pull-- to move, or gather in small groups to talk, share theories of what exactly is going on.



Has anyone had dreams as I have (Read journal, 'OBE/ Dreamscapes')? Is there something that fits into the puzzle of who and what we are-- for those rather recently Awakened as I am, for those wanting to Awaken and come here to try and find that nearby link?



The Calling I've had at least, has also induced moments of extreme paranoia, and complete calm all in the same hour. My senses have heightened (except for hearing, sadly), but at some level I feel I hear more (on another plane, perhaps?) moreso than here.



Anyone have thoughts, ideas, information that perhaps would be useful? I'll also paste this to my journal in the first category for those wishing to puruse it in the future, in case this is lost.

I feel I fester-- not here, but elsewhere.

Loved only to be loved moreso by another, would the grass only be everso grener on the other side had I jumped the fence?

I hurt, I yearn, I want and yet I cannot have-- money, fame, noteriety as I'd like, nor hope, dreams and fears. It all boils down to a few little things, words, mindframes, and yet I cannot switch to the right frame without the rest tearing to pieces.

From:

Simon



15:14:08

Mar 17 2006



Well I see that this whole profile and portfolio thing is not that important after all. you deleted all of yours so I guess I dont have to worry about bothering you for advise in setting up a page and all of the downloading. Love the one pic of you though, if that is you. You are a very beautiful person. I still rated you at a *10 just for your honesty in telling it like it is. Later, Simon



~



"You must think you're quite the piece of work, yourself.

No, it isn't important to me because of all the littles like -yourself- that seem to think that's all there is to a person here.



--And yes, if you've bothered to use the scroll bar system that's been intergrated into my profile, you'd see there a series of them, all me.



Don't send messages like this to people, it shallows you."



And that's my rant of how I absolutely hate this voting system, and wish it could be turned off for those that have the PM. Some of the people here and their upturned noses really piss me off.



Rate me anything you fucking please-- it's not going to break me one little bit. I can be a very, very raw individual when it so pleases me-- so fuck off.



To all of those that have the guts I do, Happy St. Pat's, and may the winds be at your back.



~



From:

simon

18:14:56

Mar 17 2006



uhhh, o.k. i guess my attempt to be funny backfired in my face. apparently someone has totally pissed you off about you profile. I myself apologize because I did not mean in ill will towards you about it. I was honestly attempting to make a joke about it. As I said, I am new to this.

once again I apologize and never to bother you again. SORRY.

But I do feel that if you want to be an Acolyte and be here to help people, then you need to lead by example and get your shit together. Have a nice day.



"Funny how you say I need to get my shit together, because it's more together than many people here. And what 'shit' is it you speak of, hmm?



The fact I choose NOT to have a portfolio-- as in most cases in the past the only portfolios people had were pictures stolen from others? If you're so new to this, you should know I'm a rather secretive person for the most part-- which is why I choose not to have a portfolio-- my choice.



If you want me to continue to post your idiotic posts to me-- feel free. I've plenty of ammo."

Ever growing closer, I cannot wait for Vegas.

Things will be so different there-- I can't believe I'm still going to go.



I'll miss everyone here, and perhaps make a few extra friends along the way-- can't wait.

Posted: 09:00:12 - Mar 07 2006

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Vampiric souls have a natural ambition to learn, grow-- and in some cases raise hell in order to do it. *winks*



More human individuals are happy and feel they are better off with knowing there's possibly an afterlife, and... that's it. They go there, met their respective Creator... and that's it.



'We' (don't I suddenly feel royal? Ha!) strive for more, a greater purpose or placement in this life-- and the ability to go 'back' as it were, and find what made us who who were in other lifetimes.



Not all Awakened creatures will go to the extent other do-- proclaiming what they are in front of a live audience, or run for governor-- but perhaps take a satisfaction in either role playing( the creature they feel they are or will 'become,') or just listen to the music that 'tells' them what they truly are (Atreyu, for example).



Sooner or later they'll either phase out, or realize what they are exactly-- even just a thread of it and continue on. This is the wanting to know more, passionately trying to find other like themselves and delving into things haphazardly in order to find a greater peace within themselves.



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I think I made my case, don't you?

Pain thickens, and I fear the worst.



I do not lose hope, but my one... I won't say guiding light, but bright object in my eyes, has not spoken with me for some time, now. I wonder if he ever will again, and I worry, I admit.



My heart feels weakened and my trip grows ever near. The Golden Palms entice me, and I cannot wait to go. Thisperhaps will be my greatest feat yet, and I hope to do more once time and money permits me to do so.



But I wonder.... where has he gone?